Posted by: neblinoso | October 7, 2009

Speechless

I have never felt as homesick as i do right now.  Always independent, with a desire for change, this was not the kind of news i needed right now.  I’m thousands of miles from home, thousands of miles from any sort of comfort that could be brought to me.  I’m shocked.  I’m angry.  I’m afraid for the future.  I’m speechless.

I came here to do a job, and the professional in me knows i still need to do that with the same focus i had about 1 hour ago, and i will do that, cuz i’m the type of person that buries her emotions and moves on regardless, because that’s what has to be done. 

These are my immediate emotions.  The small part of me that isn’t convulsing with tears knows that time will balance out these feelings and that eventually the optimistic in me will see this as a positive change in my life.  But right now, i just want to be in the comfort of my own surroundings, friends who i can talk with in person, family to whom i can vent…anyone who can give me a hug, cuz i really need one right now.

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Responses

  1. I was really sorry to hear the news!

  2. When you get this, you will have been sent energy and a white light to surround you in hopes that the warmth from that light will start to heal the deep gashes that you received this AM.
    I am so sorry Allie……

  3. Dear Allison,
    I hope I can talk to you on the blackberrie later but until then i want you to know i will be hugging you through the precious arms of JESUS!
    I’ve been reading the blogs and am not sure what is happening. Try to remember that time and space is not withholding the love I have for you.
    Sometimes Change can be just a pain that doesn’t make sense. I’m not sure if you need any advice right now,but God will never leave you alone.
    Psalm 41:10 Fear not for I AM with you:be not dismayed, for I will strengthen you,yes I will help you, I will uphold you with MY Righteous Right HAND. LOVE mama b

  4. *BIG HUG* You’ll always be my Work Wife. 🙂


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